Amel's Journey

  Foto dokumentasi: Rumah Semut Merauke Gimana sih first impression kalian pas pertama kali denger kota Merauk e ? Hahaaa pasti jadi keingetan lagu dari Sabang Sampai Merauke ngga sih? Pokoknya entah itu dimana yaa paling ujung dari Indonesia lah yaa. Pernah bayangin ngga buat tinggal disanaa? Duh bayangin aja pasti udah ngeri yaa, daerah mana itu anta brataa kali yaaa... Nah setelah sekian lama mengumpulkan mood baru deh kesampaian nulis artikel ini hehe Iya jadi aku sempet tinggal di Merauke selama 6 bulaan, jangan tanya rasanya gimanaa, nanoo nanooo banget. Ceritanya dimulai dari 30 Maret 2018, iyaa jadi aku ketrima di salah satu BUMN yang bergerak di bidang transportasi tepatnya PT Angkutan Sungai Danau dan Penyeberangan Indonesia Ferry (Persero). Gils, panjang banget yaaa namanya wkwk biasa disebut ASDP. Pasti kalian ngga tau ASDP ya? Ok deh gapapa, aku aja pas daftar gatau kok ini perusahaan apa haha tapi kalian pasti tau kan penyebrangan Jawa-Sumatera (Merak-Bakauhe...

My feeling for you is an unspeakable feeling No matter how your feeling & your treatment with me is I still & always be here Admiring you from the side that is disguised. I won’t tell this feeling Because I don’t deserve you I’m not your craving woman & not your kind of woman I realize this pitiable fact So, I’ll not demand anything but your happiness Someday, there will be two possibilities Each of us will find someone else Or we will be united I couldn’t even ensure the fate which will be ours The one and only thing that I could ensure is There is beauty from each of His fate

Life. Life is unique and full mistery, isn’t it? Sometimes, I do want A, but all I get is Z. What a contradiction. Heart mutinies, but all I can do is accepting, no other better choice. This word may be true that I may not always end up where I thought I was going, but I will always end up where I am meant to be. Arrrgghh, trying to believe that. I ever heard that the best thing in life is having choice, indeed. I didn’t think as much as that at the time, but now when I don't have choice huaaaaaa that's perfectly right. I wanna be chosen by someone/something I choose (HAHA maybe this is all people want in the whole world). My life. It's just full of unspeakable secret/feeling. I wanna utter but sometimes it's kinda in vain. So, I keep it to my self. Even I realize that as if it's somehow wrong way to have natural reaction of life. So, it looks like everything is okay whereas it's literally not. But that's the art of life, you can choose everything you ...